To the spa nearby

Today, I went to Hanami  outrigger with the mother and the spa nearby.
The condition was good from the morning and the mother seemed to want to go out, being early.
However, a stomach seems full, being constipated a little.
However, the constipation, too, seemed clearly canceled if drinking the strawberry milk juice with gultation which I had and went out feeling well.
The constipation had been written at the book when it wasn't better than the trots.
It will have more frequently because constipation is canceled and a condition is said to be good when drinking my juice.
It thought whether or not to receive a medical prescription of the anticancer drug on Friday and whether or not it got to feel sick, but the gait which leaves a hospital, too, was sound, there was hope " to want to eat sweet ", it ate pieces of fruit, agar cubes, and bean jam served in syrup, and it did a purchase and it returned.
Saying that it had vomited all ones which were wearily 1.5 months before and ate, too, but its being a plainly accustomed state
Only, say that it is constipated from Friday and there still is not a side effect of the anticancer drug.
I, too, am careful and decide to insert the food that the physical condition becomes good as much as possible.
It put the cluster outlet rate which a cat's-claw was included in in all to the mineral water which the mother is drinking for now.
It hides in the mother of the dislike suply and it sneaks but it thinks that the one to still take in every day is valuable.
It seems to have fattened a little and also the weight, too, is the mother to have increased but it wants sweet and a lot of greasy ones without taking away them too much.
( but there is little quantity which still eats even if it is necessary )
Also, it is the order to pray sincerely to for not being because the cause why it fattened is abdominal dropsy.
It returns and the mother and I have a nap it without rising from the spa and eating simply why, having become sleepy.
I, too, returned to the house because the physical condition of the mother, too, became a feeling but I, too, became very sleepy.
Later, when attempting to telephone, it was relieved in the thing to have become vigorous if having a nap and for the appetite, too, to have boiled.
Will that fatigue be an effect on the spa today to suit sick medical treatment?
Whatever it makes, the thing that there are many spas nearby is a fortunate thing.

Abdominal dropsy ･･

Today, it was squired to the immunity treatment of the mother.
1 piece of cool was said to end today.
The mother received the inspection of the CT at the hospital which is receiving a gem Saar medical prescription yesterday, and had the result and went to the immunity treatment.
Mother very well by the mood
" The pancreatic cancer becomes small a little thanks to gem Saar and is ･･♪ ".
It seemed that it sold and it showed a diagnosis result.
However, there, it is ･･･.
Surely, a neoplasm at the nuclear power plant fitted the state which was reduced, to be few but was written down to the following line with " a little abdominal dropsy is seen and the peritoneum expands, to be few ".
Saying that it was constipated recently when asking to the mother
When seeing how things are, it seems that it doesn't go to the lavatory, too, too much.
It showed willingly in front of the hand of the mother, but as for the doctor in attendance of the immunity treatment, it saw the result and a look was still clouded slightly.
It said last.
Examining a net and reading a book, too
Only the information, " there is not a way of the terminal ･･ treatment of the cancer in the abdominal dropsy by the peritoneum change ", becomes available.
The state the comparative return of the appetite, too, in now OBJ DO and the complexion, too, is good slightly
Then, it is the thing that it became possible at night, too, to sleep.
The state which is vigorous even if it does a purchase and the having a meal at Ginza before treatment today, too, and it does a purchase at the department store to the return, too
It had stopped over in the clean place in station on the way Sakura which leads to the hospital by bus from Ginza and we had been capped to green tea and the cherry blossom rice cake.
This week, on June 1st, it takes a trip by the 2nd, the mother and me.
In spite of being a so vigorous mother, it passes away saltily soon with the abdominal dropsy, that it is possible to move and it will have been hospitalized or ･･･
If the abdominal dropsy occurs, will it be several months really already?
The hand doesn't have work saltily somehow.

The mother who went to traveling

It was the mother who went to traveling with 24 pieces of (Saturday), 25 pieces of Sunday and the family ( I am absent ).
Before going to traveling, it met at the station and it ate at the dining room at the department store.
Night ate Chinese food by the fact of Japanese cuisine at the inn.
It is a mouthful in the porridge of the porridge set to have said that it wanted to eat Peking duck to and for three, one piece of Shao Mai, me to have asked Peking duck from it.
Then, it is almond jelly ･･ in the dessert.
Yesterday, the appetite was said to be falling because it was the day of the anticancer drug prescribing but even though, it is a nice appetite.
It seems that it wants to increase a little about the weight, too.
Also, it was very relieved to the state which walks very vigorously at the department store.
Cancer, and so on, isn't really believed.
Next week, it is traveling at me and two.
Simply, it is pleasant and it leaves neatly beforehand in the memory but it doesn't want to think of that this is last traveling, and so on.
In the mother who likes traveling abroad, it wants to take a streetcar to restored Paris again.

Now, My mother is vigorous!

The mother moves to the hospital nearby, does the raindrop of the anticancer drug once in the week and at present, she goes to 2 weeks once in the immune-therapy.
Therefore, a little fatigue, too, is the seen but very vigorous state.
Only, to still become purpose of the going in this every day or the condition as a little more intoxicated to have entered a spa becomes a feeling.
The appetite, too, seems to decrease fairly.
The vegetables which are moreover freshly-squeezed from tomorrow morning because my physical condition, too, returned
It cures to form the material which is called juice and " a glutathion " in the interior of the body.
The protein which contains three kinds of a lot of amino acids which are needed in the boiling
It thinks that it let's send milk jelly in the entering.
While sending this juice and jelly, it thinks for the imagination or the appetite to have returned.
( but doing the previous being in about 2 weeks )
It thinks that the one to still take in every day will arrange the condition of the gastrointestinal tract.
Let's exert because of I, too, am careful of the physical condition and also the mother!
Immediately, it was a by-talk but the master who destroyed physical condition last weekend with me was saying.
" In such a case, there is not a feeling of eating the prepared food to be selling " When sick, it may be that the warm food that the love of the family stayed is more necessary than the nutritional balance and so on.
Then, it saw the master who ate love こそが of the family to have charged there with, ･･･ which may be that above all, too, becomes medicine and the wheat noodle which I made and recovered physical strength and it thought of him.
The environment that I can make a meal only about that ･･･ which it has no choice but to make with it can do something will be composed of mother.
The physical condition returned to original and was me who think of future thing.

The new treatment way(The baryon treatment part2)

It is variously examining the one which is called the cure which is new at present.
The one is above-mentioned heavy particle radio cancer treatment.
It is the one which has an interest by mother's seeing on TV.
To irradiate an enough dose in the conventional ray did a difficult cancer and so on boiling pair and saying that there was an effect
It is the cure which goes in National Institute Of Radiological Science in Chiba and it is the cure which was approved in the highly advanced medical technology in 2003.
As the part which is implementing baryon cancer
● The brain tumor
● The eyes
● The lung cancer
● The cancer which can make a head and neck
● The liver cancer
● The pancreatic cancer
● The uterine cancer
● The prostatic cancer
● The cancer of the bone and the muscle
In the fact, because a pancreas, too, is contained, it cherishes and it is examining desire but it is ･･･.
 Then, the medical cost is ･･ to let's let out by 3,140,000 yen.
･･ that what way will be best in the changed cancer to coexist with the treatment even if there is not yes and to live long as much as possible
Way, the mother did the 4th anticancer drug treatment.
The thing that there are few persons who can continue an anticancer drug continuously four times
In the overeating, in addition to feeling sick, the side effect, too, is the mother who isn't seen especially.
Whether or not it is bad about whether or not it is good ･･

The new treatment way (1) corpuscular rays ( The electric charge heavy particle radio )

The corpuscular rays ( the electric charge heavy particle radio ) treatment is the general term of the radiotherapy which cures a malignant tumor mainly by irradiating the beam of the corpuscular-radiation of proton and baryon ( the heavy ion ) and so on to the focus.
In the kind of the particle to use, it is divided into the proton line treatment, the baryon ( the heavy ion ) line treatment and the pion radiotherapy and so on and clinical application and a research are done in each place in the world.
For example, in the proton line treatment, it is the atomic nucleus of the hydrogen atom and it irradiates the one to have made high-speed by accelerating the proton which has a positive electric charge to the interior of the body.
These are the one which is developed, making the clinical experience of the irradiation radiation treatment a basis out of using an X ray and a gamma beam ( gamma ray ) but are expected as the cure which has the characteristic which suited the treatment of the cancer.
The corpuscular rays treatment is the cure to irradiate by narrowing down aim to the target which calls the proton line and the baryon ( the heavy ion ) line which is gotten from the actuator of the cyclotron and the synchrotron and so on cancer.
The characteristic of the one ( the electric charge heavy particle radio ) which has an electric charge out of the corpuscular rays is the fact not to advance towards above the depth which is constant and the fact to act most strongly about some depth.
To center the effect on the cancer focus compared with the photon line in the proton line and the baryon ( the heavy ion ) line from these characteristics becomes easy.
Therefore, without bringing about the side effect which is strong in the organization around the cancer focus, the enough dose can be irradiated.
It thinks that it does </span> which suits the treatment of the becoming localized cancer focus that <span style="color:#FF00FF;"> isn't progressing because the proton line and the baryon ( the heavy ion ) line become localized in the cancer boiling and it is possible to be irradiated by them.
The effectivity seems to be able to be especially shown by the treatment when there is an organization which is weak about the ray in the neighborhood of the cancer.
The effectivity which makes a pair a malignant melanoma in the eyeball, the chordoma and the chondrosarcoma to have formed in near the central nerve system, the head and neck cancer, the I period non- cellule lung cancer, the liver cell carcinoma, the prostatic cancer of the part and so on from the results so far becomes clear.

The spa and the sushi

Today, it was absent from the work and it associated with the spa and the purchase nearby.
It was the 2nd, leaving hospital, but it got to accept more long for than the last time ( Saturday ) and also the eating quantity, too, increased to the spa.
It seems that it is glad that it is still possible to come to this spa.
Also, the combination of the spa and the lunch was to do the favorite of the mother from the old days because the meal at the dining room on this spa was fairly good and there was a good sushi person, too, nearby.
Because 1 week isn't passing yet, leaving hospital when coming on Saturday
To walk, too, was slowly and a meal, too, was had only as much as the tofu boiled in a seaweed-based soup.
It was saying that it entered a spa, too, three times and that it was sick slightly.
However, ( were anxious slightly because there are much sea urchins, yellow tail and ･･ fat ) and (, but ) 4 potion, too, were eaten and did green tea, too, in the sushi today
When the physical strength is recovering plainly with the banking-up addition in the purchase, too, behind the spa
It felt.
Yesterday, it seems that it says the explanation of the immune-therapy to the hearing in Shinjuku.
A family except me was accompanied.
Saying that it is easy that to be effective in the pancreas directly produces a good result because it seems to have been discouraged by the explanation, ･･･ not to understand, to be few but the activated immunocyte can be invested near the direct cancer in case of ( colon cancer
The pancreas seems to have been the explanation not to find whether or not the immunocyte reaches compared with it.
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There is a specific medicine, and so on, no longer.
Rather, it thinks that it wants to attempt to concentrate power on making disappear if stopping " cancer " by recovering physical strength and going well.
For now, it has an appetite and it is glad to become vigorous.
It sends the milk jelly which put an every morning, protein and freshly-squeezed vegetable juice to the mother and it goes to the company.
This morning, it sent a blueberry juice with Noni juice.
It seems that it eats in the every morning.
The possibility that they, too, are surely proceeding with the vigor at the body of the mother
Because it charges with my thought

The premiere of the anticancer drug treatment after leaving hospital

The day ･･ of the anticancer drug treatment which is the first time today with the mother leaving hospital
I thought that the escort can not not done but that the father would be accompanied for the work.
The mother seems to have gone to the hospital at one.
Then, it telephoned at night and it knew to have been made to wait by 2 hours, and that it became exhausted and that it returned from the time of the reservations.
Therefore, only that is ･･ to have said to have replace with the hospital nearby.
The physician in charge who told that it went to the university hospital to have found that it was like this isn't believed of me.
The mother of the physician in charge who believes only that it says isn't more believed.
Doesn't it know that it doesn't attempt to do a salty thought?
Then, the father to have made a mother go to the hospital at one isn't more believed.
Feelings to be more so if being it are not occasionally because there are they but they are the life of a stranger.
The feeling as it has no choice but to be attempting to be silent reached the last which is hard just as it is.

The anticancer drug treatment and the leaving hospital

Yesterday, it went to the visit of the mother during anticancer drug prescribing on Thursday.
It was while prescribing 1400 mg of gem Saar.
The feelings are anyhow and to have attempted to hear, but to get to feel sick especially and the state not to be been in the chopsticks in by.
The mother who was moved to the cell spoke when she can sleep well in that she seems very vigorous and the quietness of her.
Saying that it is beautiful with Mt. Fuji's being beautiful from the window, too, in the ･･ morning and the evening
When getting home surely, because Mt. Fuji and the afterglow to see from the high-rise floor can not be seen, it doesn't see much beforehand and it rejects them.
Then, a meal, too, is said to have become eaten as much as the half of the diet-in-the-hospital and a raindrop is said to have passed away in the afternoon of the day.
Also, the mother of whom the extraction of a tooth, too, finished, and she occurred completely and was made able to move woke up immediately after anticancer drug prescribing and saw me to the elevator.
" Moving every day and being ", and it says and it is ･･･.
The mother who is robust, being great and being basic
The condition ♪
It seems that there was consultation on the leaving hospital the day and on the phone yesterday, the leaving hospital seems decided on February 6th on Tuesday next week.
Also, the condition becomes bad and it seems that there is not an anticancer drug after-administration, too, in the chopsticks.
The meal, too, seems to have become had as much as the half of the diet-in-the-hospital.
It is saying that the orange is good.
Not to have liked too much before
It will take a tangerine and arabinoxylan tomorrow.
The father, too, seems to be examining a cure with the variety.
＼ ;-) to let's exert at all /

It is an announcement to the very person.

The state which is simple in the fact of the very person, saying " awaking to that there are few remaining days and " she " is simple " with the neighborhood seeming to have been a shock more about the fruit of the place to have announced the change of the pancreatic cancer to the mother very person

" After that it is possible to return  in the house as much as 2 weeks "
" Possible to traveling, being good in so far and the same life "
Because there was not a pain, too, now, it was saying such a thing quietly.

It is so.

It thinks only in the future and it is in the 1st  that it is pessimistic.
The same the 1st of the one which thinks of the pleasant thing and is quietly done about it.

In the same the 1st, it doesn't become serious, it doesn't feel sad and it should spend pleasantly.
It saw the mother and it thought of her so.

With I, too, not becoming stronger
It says and this time, it attaches an image.

No! Fight!

I am discouraged and do how!

As for not exerting without giving up until the last, it is!!.

Operation impossible ･･

The place to have done an abdominal-section to operate
･･･ for for the change to be horrible for the operation of which it was said to be impossible
It is a thing with the remainder as for now eaten.

Now, it isn't possible to write any more in the shock.
Already, will the recovery be impossible?

It is hospitalized until the middle in June and after that, do say that it leaves hospital but will it be possible to leave hospital real?

Together and also to have believed a spa and the day when it is possible to take a trip

The explanation of the pancreatic cancer exposure operation

Today, the father and the mother received a detailed explanation by the operation which is done on Monday.
I wasn't hearing but it found the following from the story of the mother.

○ The pancreas removes a degree in the half and exposes it.
○ As for the duodenum, it removes a part or all.
○ The bile duct removes a part.
○ It doesn't expose a stomach.
Nothing was said to be that it was possible to be when not attempting to open  but it was said to at the hospital before I see and expect the other blog and so on and also transfer.
○ The pancreas extractio totalis
○ About 1/3 pieces of exposure of the stomach
○ The liver, too, exposes a part.

It seemed to be much lighter than in the condition and being relieved slightly about me
However, the mother was being very shocked in the state that the expectation, too, wasn't doing the fact to be such a complicated operation at all.

However, because it was the operation which finishes without 30 %'s being able to be operated on, being diagnosed as the pancreatic cancer as me and exposing a stomach the among them, were fair relieved.
In , it seems that it began in the writing such as the elapse diary in the shock but the very person is ･･.
Anyhow, the operation go well and the elapse behind the art, too, be good.

Going to a visit

Today, it went to the visit of the mother after a long time.
After the work begins, it is busy every day and also the mother has transferred to the far away hospital from the house and can not go to the morning and the evening and the visit every day like the Golden Week.
This week, it is a visit only on Thursday and today.
Also, the rule is severe in the university hospital and like the previous hospital, the hospital which transferred this time leads early in the morning and can not be left late in the evening.
Also, the nurse, too, seems very busy and the service of the towel by which a body is wiped and so on, too, seems to pile.
Also, it is ･･ with the smell which is wafting into the hospital which is peculiar to the hospital.
Only, before hospital transfer, the having was a ban absolutely but at this hospital, a meal is said to be served.
Only it is a help but the appetite of the mother seems to be not completely satisfactory and seems not to eat too much.
The raindrop has begun from yesterday evening.
However, the patient of the pancreatic cancer is gathered from the whole country.
There is said to be a teacher who can trust.
Because the mother doesn't accept use with the substitution therapy, until it leaves hospital, it has no choice but to believe a hospital.
せい to meet after a long time or the feeling as lean and the complexion became bad did a mother and became sad a little.
It was saying to me who am busy that it does " not driving to be permitted not to be unreasonable " " because it makes quite light ", but it pulled a raindrop and the return came out to the seeing off to the bus stop.
As for not making it be possible to go still more frequently, it is ･･･.
When seeing my face, as for a little, the feelings, too, will slip.
However, I, too, am tired with the work and can not come up with a pleasant topic readily.
Anyhow, as for not being, it is ･･･.
An operation is said to be the 22nd or the 24th.
Will steadily earlier stretching ･･ be OK?

The hospital transfer and operation and then ････

After all, the mother chose an operation.
It is the fact to want to clear.
Surely instructed from the more various ones for you, " that it is in the operation that the probability of the survival was the highest "
That the very person, too, consents and to be the best way are sure.
However, I want to go in parallel about the immune-therapy by the supplement, too.
It wants to strike all hands to improve the probability of the survival.
However, the mother says " because it entrusts to the. doctor because it is good " and my carrying-forward is the posture to refuse.
I think that it is necessary to do in its own way the preparation which is careful to start miracle.
It thinks that it is and that it is 10 % of probabilities of " the miracle " that happen that it is possible to happen by making to do all of that it should be thought of.
10 % of persons think that they became so after they tried a means to make the probability nearly 100 %.
However, the mother doesn't understand it.
Without that there are all difficulties, it seems that it wants to believe only the miracle which is accidental really, living as the instruction of the doctor.
Does it understand feelings, too, but then, will the miracle not happen?
･････ that will be good if not denying the will of the very person absolutely and being made to make like it because there are not former and a child about quarreling last but that I want to help a mother in my idea
If to have been done  in the similar experience, it is glad if it is possible to comment.
Commented from the similar situation including this blog for it and it is extremely encouraging and also its thinking fortunately
Only, it was another place but it felt carefully when there was a very hurt comment and the Internet was the one to be fearful of.
?isn't believed of to the person who is groping about the road why, being desperate it will be possible to do " studying " more and so on and the writing in which seems awful.
Even if writing in can be erased, I will not forget it in the lifetime.

Is it an operation and whether or not it is or chemotherapy?

From the teacher of the sawbones by mother's being the pancreatic cancer of stageⅢ or stageIVa at present
There was an explanation.
As for the size of the pancreatic cancer, the jaundice is in the coming condition because it is pressing a bile duct, being regarded as about 4 cm but the being of the change into the liver and the left internal organs of it is done a fact of .
Saying that it was only in now where there is physical strength if operating
When doing bile duct drainage art for the bile evacuation to get home and for a meal to be completed, the pipe for the drainage became in the disturbance boiling and laparotomy because of the cancer was said to become difficult.

1) The operation
2) It does a drainage and it is chemotherapy at the house.

･･･ It will be ･･ how.
Now, it boils two and it is pressed to do one piece of decision.
However, however, in case of 2), it confirms whether or not the complications by the drainage are not.
Because it is, after all, until about 15 days, like now, in the without food or water condition, it is calorie-rich.
Living as it gives an intravenous injection which is and it strikes insulin about saying that the blood sugar level became high
However, to continue is regrettable really.
If choosing 2), already, it seems that it isn't possible to do an operation.
If it was possible to operate, the feelings to be permitted to try, too, appeared.
It seems that it intends for mother herself, too, to do loss.
However, if choosing 1), the pancreas is an extractio totalis.
...the place to waver really